Little Lessons

Today, I decided to do something nice for myself. I figured since I've been so busy loving other people, I needed time to stop and love myself for a little while. So, I took myself out to lunch. Just me and astronomy homework :) And I didn't feel awkward or lonely. I felt strong and healthy and independent. I felt damn good! One turkey burger and two to-go sweet teas later, I found myself wandering over to my friends room where, shortly after I got there, he passed out leaving his computer open for whatever. And to my surprise I caught my friend Joe online. My friend Joe is wonderful. By far, one of the best people I've met in my life. He can read me like a book, and unlike most guys, is not an idiot when it comes to the obvious. Thank you God for at least one of them! First thing he asks me is if I've been lovesick and I guess to a certain extent I have been. So I replied yes and what followed made my entire day. He put a lot of things into perspective for me that I wouldn't have thought about till then. This whole "thing" thats going on with this guy is a whole lot simpler than I've been making it out to be. Joe's biggest advice? "Just let it play out". He also told me that this whole "not talking to the guy thing" is just a form of instant gratification and that I should avoid that and suffer through this. I mean, not technically s.u.f.f.e.r. but I should just ride it out with all of its highs and lows. And then at the end of everything I can say that I've learned something. And, if you don't me and haven't talked to me, then you may not know this little fact about me. I am a huge, I mean GINORMOUS believer in learning something from your experiences and hardships and just from every day life. With every relationship I've had, whether it be friends or an actual boyfriend type relationship, I've been able to take something with me that I'll never forget. Even my friend Joe: he set the standard for guys I date in the future. He is just that wonderful! After all was said and done, he said one final thing (well, not final final, but pretty close to final). He said that no matter what, me and this guy were friends first, whether is started with him liking me or me liking hin. Joe told me to cherish this friendship. He told me to be the wonderful person that he knows I am and maybe, just maybe the guy will change his mind. For now though, don't count on it. No games, be happy, be me. That made my whole day!