another one of those days...

I tried to do that whole hiatus thing today. It worked for the most part, I guess. After I got off of work, I went back to my place and had lunch and then slpet for like 4 hours. Then, of course, because I am such a people person, I had to talk to someone. So, it started out with Lena, ending with a few errand runs for her. Then, Jono stopped by and I hung out with him and THAT led to shots at Picassos with Lena, Jono, and Patrick. Which was cool. I love them so thats no biggie. And then, while I was with India and Brittain, HE came in to say goodnight. One of the people I didn't want to see. Here's to tomorrow, I guess. I think that may go over better because I have work at 4pm, which means when I get off, I can go to bed and then I won't even have a chance to see him. I don't know why I'm feeling the way I am towards him. I mean, as Katie kindly pointed out, I was so unsure about him BEFORE he actually told me that he didn't care about me 'that way'. So why am I all stressed out now? I guess its because he was the guy I thought I could fall back on and then I realized I couldn't. So now I'm left feeling stupid. Hell, I don't really know HOW I feel. I like him, I don't like him, in fact, I HATE him, but I love him to death. Maybe I just liked the thought of him. Maybe I just liked the thought of him liking me. I still feel a little animosity towards him, hence not wanting to see him. My goal is to stay away until after break, and then by then, I doubt I'll even care anymore. And then it can be like it was when I made fun of him and there was that friendly banter between us. How about, I am done with him.