just some randomness

8/5/08 (Sometime, somewhere in my car)

-The weight of my past is oppressing.
I'm breaking beneath it's pressure.
I thought I was stronger than it.
Having to constantly drag it with me.
Shackled to it, link by link.
I need to break free, or it very well
may be my destruction.

Now, on to today...

I finally got my tires changed, thank goodness! I can stop worrying and wondering when my tire is gonna blow. I got to spend a little time with my dad, who tried to convince me on the ride to Walmart AND back to audition for American Idol. Most of the time I spent laughing at this idea. HA! Later on, after the tire, I had dinner with the fam which was nice then I made a comment about my aunt. I asked her about her two dogs, Sake and Chablis, who have been part of the family for years. I mean, I absolutely adored them. Come to find out, they both got put to sleep because they were just too darn old to live anymore. Chablis went first then Sake about 2 weeks later. And I just wished that they would have called me about Sake. At least given me the opportunity to come and see her before she went. Sake was my favorite. The one I identified most with, if that's even possible. I loved her so much because she loved me, simply, and without any questions. It didn't matter how cool (or, let's face it, how uncool) I was in middle school (or, let's face it, high school), Sake loved me for me! I know I sound like a total nutcase right now. I mean, I'm talking about a DOG! But I really loved her. It's funny how no matter how long I'd be gone (and I'm talking months), she'd always know exactly who I was when I'd return. And she'd always sleep with me, right behind my knees where they bent. Anyways, I pretty much cried all the way home. Oh, and yes, I loved Chablis too, but she was so prissy and always snapped at me.