Adjusting to the New You

There are several things that I wanted to accomplish this year, which I have already seemed to be failing at miserably. I haven't even attempted to stop smoking yet. Actually, I just bought a new pack yesterday. And, so far, I have spent the money to open a gym membership, but have only worked out once...for like 10 minutes. This whole not dating thing? HA! Well, I DID talk to Patrick and work things out. What I got from the conversation was that we both like hanging out with each other and whatever happens, happens, but we are NOT dating. And that is a-okay with me. But then that exact night, "somebody else" got home and well...one thing lead to another. But I don't want to date him. I don't want to date anyone. Then I met this guy last night, who I've met before, but we actually seemed to "hit it off" last night when we met again. He added me to facebook and everything...ooh! I'm supposed to go to a party tonight, but after partying it up last night then calling out of work today, I feel so guilty with myself, I feel like I should just go to bed early tonight and get to work early tomorrow, you know? School starts Monday and I am so very excited. I need something to do with my time. I hate being out of school for too long. I don't know if I could handle a semester off. I'd probably shoot myself.